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ITS KILLING ME

2009-11-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

i dont know what's wrong wit me...what i know is tat i REALLY HATE this feeling..how can i ever describe this feeling. its really killing me... kenapa nie tasha....!!!! YA ALLAH, y this feeling? y? i tot i will never experience it again..i cant believe its haunting me back. is this KARMA?

what are you!! i dont like this so called unstable mood n feeling. damn it. plis....im not mad at anyone,angry or anything.yeah maybe this is what i've been going through..BREAK DOWN. even an luxury expensive machine can break down how come i didnt stand a chance to accept tat im going through BREAK DOWN?

what i can say now is that, I WANNA CRY SO BAD...REALLY BAD! even now..my tears r falling.. i need my best fren so bad so i can cry on her shoulder. i wan my hana..she can make me smiles in seconds. i wanna hang out n sleep over wit all my cronies. chatting,putting mask on each other, gossiping about our love life, play a cathcy song n dance till we drop.
I ADMITTED I AM A WOMEN TAT CANT STAND A TINY LONELINESS......its not an easy confession to be made by a women itself. but tats doesnt mean tat i am an attention seeker but i've always need that SOMEONE. i dont wan to be the one that cry the loudest,i hate being alone. ALONE where u feel all the silent. silent kills me because it scream the truth...

when loneliness appears, the only thing i want to do sooo bad is get myself busy doing things i dont even wanna remember, doing things that can make my this annoy feeling go away, make things tat i will regret in my future,make things tat i dont even like n after all tat stupid actions..i will realize i've affected all the people around me.im sorry if this BEHAVIOUR is going to be a constant BEHAVIOUR u will have to handle in future. the blame is on me.

i think there more than life than just chasing all this these temporary HIGH to satisfied me. im sorry for all this mess confused unmoral confession post....it happened all the time. i dont have the strenght to control over it n it goes the other way round.

i wish i am not natasha lai. yea.i mean it. i wish no one know me n loves me coz by the end of the day i know i will only break their heart.

hormone OH hormone!!!!

2009-11-02T20:31:00.002+08:00

aku benchik kau hormone...arrghhh! ang punya pasai aku kena dok mcm pmpn gila mengkrekotkan diri atas katil tanpa suara selain suara ARRGHHH!! sakit la bodo. well kena la dia visit aku setiap bulan tanpa henti dan bosan. itu memang xdapat dinafikan.

aku gagah jgk nk new post sbb aku dh xtaw nk buat apa atas katil nie.sat skt sat xskt.sat tu skt sampai tahap rs mcm nk kuaq anak sorang. pttlah SYURGA tu dibawah tapak kaki ibu..apa kena mgena lak nie.aku dh mula mrpek. disini aku menulis post nie smbil makan laksa dan secawan kofi kacip fatimah dan dimana DIET ini sgt xsihat bagi aku sekarang nie.awat la ang nie ssh dgq ckp tasha oiii.....

YA ALLAH...sakitnya Tuhan ja taw. rs mcm nk ambik pisau n toreh2 perot aku n kuaqkan binatang yg menyebabkan kesakitan itu. pain...plis go away...plis...im begging u..plis..T_T

*******ubat menstrual pink tu mmg xberkesan bg aku!! daymn it. T_T********

im not perfect...yes im not! dont expect it from me.plis

2009-10-31T16:22:00.003+08:00

yeah im not perfect. n i dont even try to be one.so plis stop expecting it. saya selalu xpaham org.why? is it im sooo selfish till i cant understand other people? i dun know. it is not tat i didnt try to but geez! i really hate tis feeling. go away u stupid feeling.

everything is going up side down. i cant do it anymore. im too weak for all this. i havent fully recover from my last HEART BROKEN..n still im greedy to catch for another HEART ATTACK. n now i dont know whether i can go through tis.

plis i dont want to cry anymore. i made my mind to ABOLISH the word CRY from my life dictionary. ive been there n done tat. i really dont want to go through this anymore. MAYBE IT TRUE.MAYBE ITS BETTER TO CARRY ON LIFE ALONE. by tat, i cant hurt anyone. its the only way.

p/s: sorry i dont have the strength like u have. i have tat once,but i lost it few years back. =(

EMPTY vs HAPPY versi II

2009-09-24T14:19:00.001+08:00

on my last few posts there's a post empty vs happy....the end of the post i wrote Emptiness is leading...but now what i can say is that YEY! HAPPINESS is daymn LEADING....fishy n turtle.happily ever after...hahahah....

im SOOOOOOOOO happy.....lalalalallalalalalalalalla........ =) mei mia amor...wo ai nie..bahahahhaha!

RAYA KETIGAKU>>>>>> ^^

2009-09-24T13:45:00.002+08:00

today adalah raya ketiga.apa ayat aku nie.mcm budak skolah ja.ok2.next. teman eman p cr tcket blk kl at jeti but tutup la plak plusliner tu so we went off to Gurney Plaza sbb eman nk beli kasut for his sis.dh smp tu cr la kedai nose.try2 kasut yg nk beli then meet mummy at GSC then went down to food court makan.

after makan,ikut eman g parking lot sbb he say he got sumthing for me.heheheh.=) i dapat anak! anak ikan emas! so cute.n confession has been made. wee....im SOOO HAPPY.been smiling till abis tgk movie Tsunami with familia. hahaha.gila angau beb.

total tcket mummy bought was 16tcket for Tsunami movie.wah gila lawak movie tu awal2...xdak pon batang idong tsunami but after tat moment2 half and hour b4 finish..daymn stupid Tsunami buat aku nanges.dh la aku nie gila sensetip,sedih sikit nanges.seb baek eman xtgk skali klu x nmpk sudah muka buruk aku nanges.hahahah.=)

we went off from Gurney around 9sumthing.tergedek2 aku lari kat keta sbb nk tgk ikan emas aku.huh.seb baek idop lg.ksian dia.tu pon dh nk nyawa2 ikan.takot gila aku...so after cr kedai yg we all always go,dh tutup la plak so xjd,so smua went to tokwan house dok lepak2 sembang.then after tat round midnight br p mkn rmi2 kat kedai nearby beach.GILA XSEDAP!!! TOBAT aku xp dh kedai tu! dl kedai tu gila mmg sedap,dh tukaq owner.dh la service mcm taik.bengong mcm xphm bhsa melayu.sorry.aku mmg xpuaih aty...mintak cili potong bg sambai belacan.xka bangang?nasi dh nk abis br nk bg cili ptong.dh tu ckit lak.msk celah gigi ja.hhahahaha.

hari ni adalah tarikh keramat for me..22/09/2009....kan turtle?? agaknya TUHAN dgq doa aku slama nie.maybe this is it. =) tei amor turtle...^^

RAYA KEDUAKU>>>>>

2009-09-22T01:22:00.002+08:00

i cant make it to taiping with eman.coz wat ha?sb xsempat nk inform mummy.
then get ready to go to mak long house.but really wanted to go taiping.maybe next time.=)

but b4 tat we all singgah at tesco for mcd.sbb dh lapaq mcd sgt.mummy la yg lapaq.not me.
arrive at gelugoq mak long house around 7sumthing.right b4 maghrib. tgk2 tv,mkn2 muruku (raya kena mkn muruku,xka merepek,mak long oh mak long),sembng2,gelak2(rutin faveret family ku),then only mkn.after tat,sambung blk smua rutin td smbil tgk movie congkak,gelak n tgk kehenseman shah rukh khan dlm movie om shanti om.,eh btoi ka aku eja.ntah la,layan ja la.
rounf 11sumthing br gerak blk.had so much fun taking pics,laughing with family n msg-ing him...=)
i upload dlm facebook ja la.mls nk upload 2 3 tmpt.huhu...

suppose to go to dzariff house beraya but xsempat sbb asyik ralek ja dok kat umah mak long.haizz.sorry dzariff.tomorow k.=) ok dh la.penat la nk tulis byk2.penat beraya.hahha.^^

RAYA PERTAMAKU>>>>>>

2009-09-21T13:28:00.002+08:00

hari ini rasa indah sungguh sbb nie lah pagi raya,bgn siap2...main makeup2 jap.tolong mummy msak rendang.then layan family.

my fren org pertama yg mai umah is eman.mummy was really excited about he dtng beraya.haizz.
after mkn2 rndang.we r off to his house..mkn2 rendang lg.mkn cookies mak eman buat,main dgn bo0.tgk cita KISAH SITI...aisyeh man.dh xtaw nk wat pa.teka2 lagu,main2 guitar.apa lagi ha.igt nk wat trip pusing kampung but ujan so cancelled. n wujud lak terma baru IKAN EMAS BUNTAL.hahahha.daymn eman.seb baek dan delete.pdn muka ang eman! hahahaha.

went back home b4 maghrib.arip hantarkan.after a while,ttdoq lak smp 11sumthing.
unty layla came n bring laksa gurney.mkn2 then go n pump tayar at petronas then p umah farhana beraya sat.after tat p mcd sunrise mkn..saja lepak sembang.

coming back tyme,tayar keta pecah.YA ALLAH rs cm nk mati pon ada.sbb xtaw nk cp apa kat mummy bout tat tayar.pecah tahap xleh tampal okay! pecah yg tahap kena tukaq br.abis la duet raya aku! hahaha.alot of thingy happen.but thank god everything was settled.alhamdullillah.just tingai 1 lg beban iaitu how to tell mummy.eh lupa.THANK SO MUCH to ah bear n her god bros yg mai satu keta smp 4 org hero tlng tukaq tayar.tima kasih sgt2.klu xsilap i nama hero 2 ah yong.hahaha.

well..i had a really great time n enjoyed.thx Juboq.hahaha.=) i hope u had fun to0.rindu bo0..oh ya b4 i lupa eman kata nk bg duet raya sebanyak 1.35sen. thank ya.tp blom dpt.hahha.nk tin love tu skali ya.hahaha.aku xleh lupa bdk2 yg mai umah nk beraya tu...=0

EMPTY vs HAPPY??

2009-09-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

haizz...apa semua aku buat mcm xkena ja...ya la nmpk ja mcm aku nie happening happy huha sana sni..
asyik senyum gelak ja but deep down?alahai....Tuhan aja yg taw...nk wat cm na.
no one seem to understand.
all the sad songs mcm membakaq lg keEMPTINESS nie.benchik la.
apa yg aku boleh buat?i dun even know dh...

once i was falling in love,
now i was just falling apart.

OMG! there's no check n balance in my emotion n feeling.
this can cause me HEART CANCER taw x!
im quite clueless nk tulis anything dlm nie.
tomorow im going back to ampang after my morning class.ada la rs happy tu. but...awtcm xsronok ha?

then on thursday only im going back to PENANG! yeah baby!
xsabaqnya rasa.
btw...empty vs happy? i think EMPTY is leading now....
i need HAPPY BOOSTER now a.s.a.p! anyone pls????

UNTITLED

2009-09-15T13:16:00.002+08:00

yesterday i manage to sleep back after berfacebooking.thank God.
jap aku nk kira jumlah jam aku tdoq smlm....
2ptg-6.30ptg tambah dengan (4jamstengah)
8.30mlm-12.30mlm tambah lagi dengan (4jam)
3pagi-11.30pagi....equal to? (8jamstengah)
sat dok cari kakikukalator....
okay total aku tdoq semalam 19jam...ala..belom pecah lagi rekod terhebat aku iaitu tdoq selama 2hari xbgn...i know i may sound like a dude tdow smlm 2hari but e2 lah dipanggil LETIH..ya ka letih TASHA?hahahha..whatever la.maybe.

yesterday my roomate,sakit teruk..asyik batuk ja.aku pon dh nek seriyau.aku nie anti body lemah ckit.kank dia dok batuk lebih2 kank xraya lak aku...well,at the same time aku care for her..cewah tasha! hahahha..ey aku nie a caring type of fren okay.

contoh erk cara aku care..dgq nie.aku bg selimut aku kat dia sbb dia sejuk.well lg satu sebab aku wat cm tu sbb dia pelahankan kipas.geez.aku nie mmg xtahan panas maw yg sejuk2 aja ya selalu.so that aku leh bukak kipas num 3.aku bglah selimut aku kat dia.then msa bgn subuh td aku srh tnya dia sejuk lg ka nad? dia ckp bhagian kaki sejuk so aku srh la dia pki sock n seluaq.isnt im caring? xka?

DUNIA INI INDAH KAN APABILA HARI AKU BERMULA DENGAN CAHAYA TENGAHARI...kan kan kan? wei aku lupa sahur la..ala benchik la cm nie.kan dh lapaq..warghh!

IM THE QUENN....lalallalala

2009-09-15T00:33:00.002+08:00

apa nie asyik tdoq ja nie...wargghh!!
time org tdoq aku bgn,,time aku bgn org tdoq...tension..
eh,skt perot la plak...eee.....!
apa aku dok melalut kt dlm nie nie! DH LA TASHA GO TO SLEEP!
i cant...pls make me....
should i end here? ya maybe.
there's high possibility im coming back n write again like usual..
we will see.
daily activities: tdoq xigt dunia.
terima kasih tdoq sbb jadikan dunia aku menjadi lembab dan mandom. =)

yes mmg saya ala2 GEDIX AND MENGADA2..so WHAT?

2009-09-13T18:27:00.001+08:00

yes mmg saya mengada-gada n mungkin kalau angpa nk ckp aku gedix,aku xkisah.mmg aku mcm nie.

motif blog nie ditulis apabila aku tgh mandi td..tiba2 aku tringatkan semua jamban2 n pangcok yg kotoq yg pernah aku jumpai..eeeewww.....
untuk pengetahun umum,anda sukakah toilet kotoq?ya aku xsk n AKU GELI.dosakah aku utk ada perasaan cm tu BODO???

aku sggup tahan taik aku n ayaq kencing semata2 toilet tu kotoq.so what? ngada-ngada? yes..mmg.!well HUMAN, toilet e2 tepat utk kita bersihkan diri or buang kekotoran mcm taik n kencing.klu tempat tu xbersih,bukankah PENGOTOQ namanya.cm na bersihkan diri klu tmpt yg spttnya or boleh bersih tu xbersih.SAKAI la org yg XPHM nie.

ha abis bab toilet nie,ada lg satu tmpt aku plng sensetip.KITCHEN. mak aih...klu dapoq pon xreti nk bg bersih jg elok2.mmg nk kena duku la. again.kitchen tmpt sediakan FOOD babeh!
klu dh kotoq kitchen tu,so AUTOMATICALLY makanan angpa KOTOQ la bangang! dh xyah nk nafikan ckp"xdak la aku sedia mkanan td pki sarung tangan plastic ka kaca ka penyepit ka",i dun care,it still KOTOQ.

so moral of the story,cucilah bersih2 tonyoh elok2 semua kekotoran DEGIL di toilet n kitchen anda.=) gunalah MR.MUSCLE...hahahha.pls make sure u dont have all that daki2 black thingy in ur kitchen or toilet.GEEZ! i really annoyed by that.KOTOQ la BODO.

ini hanya rekaan semata2,tidak ada kena mgena dgn rumah sesiapa mahupun restoran sesiapa ataupun yg sudah meninggal dunia.WTH...? apa2 ja lah.

p/s: inilah cara saya menGEDIKkan diri. =)

AIMAN ZAFIR

2009-09-13T16:07:00.000+08:00

eman.xpeduli la ang suka xsk warna pink nie.janji aku sk kan.....
according to my second last post(wah according2 mcm buat math lak) aku kata nk wat post pasai eman n how we meet kan??

so aku tgh xwat keja apa nie.pdhal assignment bertimbun mcm paper star kt umh aku.so aku wat la post nie sbb aku celik mata subuh td dh ada msg dr dia.
eman i think we should start from ur IC la kan?

okay then.back from school,aku dl skolah convent light street,n si eman nie lak st.xavier(depan skolah aku n adek aku pon skolah yg sma) BUT aku xprh kenai dia.masa aku blk skolah,ambik la adek aku skali,then adek aku kata kat mak aku,mummy boy jumpa wallet or just an IC,ntah la.so kami dengan hati mulia n murni nie,tgk la nama kat IC tu sbb nk konon either post ka send ourself ka.nama tertera atas IC tu Aiman mestilah bin Zafir kan.nama penuh xigt lak.=)

ala tgk punya tgk,ceh dekat ja umh mamat nie dgn aku.lorong kedua sblm rumah aku.ha alang2 nk blk tu kami stop by la.eh b4 that ada lah terjadi adengan berhubung(telefon) but i cant remember.need to ask boy.ok aku dh lupa gak la eman whether kat IC ang tulis alamat or adengan col2 2 yg ang bgtaw alamat.either one la k.

bila smp depan umh si eman nie.aku xbg perhtian sgt pn sbb aku ngantok time tu,rsnya aku dok landing kt sofa blakng keta mummy.=)after few days or weeks.adek aku si boy nie pon berkwan la gan si eman nie.so si eman nie,adk dia n srng mamat nama ADAM iaitu cuzin dia mai umah.aku time tu br bgn tdoq.terkejut aku tgk ada 3makhluk LELAKI yg BESAQ.terutama AIMAN.=)

that time aku belom jgk lg kenali any of them.maklum lah kan.malu.hehehe.dh lah mak aih besaq panjang2 depa nie.time ke brapa ntah depa mai umh aku br aku ada ckp2 ckit gan depa.but still aku xbapa bg perhatian kt eman.sbb apa?sbb kononnya adek aku ckp one of them minat aku but not eman.then aku pon msg2 la gan yg srng tu.

after all this while,last year or this year kot,aku dpt that THE TRUTH.rupa2nya.....nk bgtaw ke eman?xyah la.we just keep it to ourself.n for sure.adek aku yg bgtaw bnd nie kat aku.since that,aku rapat gan eman till today.aku first time tgk eman tu.aku tertarik sbb keunikan KENINGNYA.n of coz KETINGGIANNYA. amazing! but then he got nice smile to0.bukan mcm aku pki braces.hahahah. oh ya! dl aku slalu p bakery mak dia.sbb mak aku baek gan amk dia.=) n dia jrng ada gak.sbb time tu dia DELIVERY BOY utk mak dia.nice sandwich u got there.!sedap!

what more ha...humm...dia prh mai umh aku kt ampang.sbb umh nenek dia kat kl.we jarang lepak together just more to SMSing each other. one thing for sure.my mummy really like AIMAN.y ha mummy?they even like to chat to each other.haizz...eman igt x last sembang gan mummy dia kata apa kat ang? eman unty tggu eman msk meminang.WTH...hahahhaha.

what more yg aku da tertingai.pls leave ur comment ya AIMAN ZAFIR....=)

EMOTIONAL+FEELING= TAK TENTERAM

2009-09-13T05:07:00.000+08:00

i dont know what happened to me. i cant express or figure out what actually is wrong with me.i had this feeling that im quite thankful everything is over,but at the same time i still have this tiny feeling(tipu la klu aku kata tiny,more n more i mean) what i called love.maybe this is major problem.

only TUHAN yg lebih mengetahui.sesungguhnya aku xberniat nk sakitkan aty mn2 pihak or break their heart,i will never do that coz i've always put other ppl ahead me than myself. but im in this situation where i had to choose.whether its maw mati ka maw hidop kind of situation.since that on my right side of love is more faithfull n bak kata perpatah air dicincang xputus so i decided to choose the right side.but thats doesnt mean i dont love the left side.n again only TUHAN know how i feel.

since that aku sentiasa xlupa solat hajat so that everyone is happy,as long as they happy n eventhought it do hurt me, i still gonna SMILE n LAUGH like nothing happen.but then deep down,i'll just keep it to myself.aku anggap nie sbg dugaan TUHAN kpd hambanya.

all i can say is that IM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SORRY.
kita hanya merancang,TUHAN yg menentukan. again IM SO SO SO SORRY.
biaqlah dia anggap aku srng yg jahat,kejam,xberhati perot,mean,selfish,yes! i'll take all that.u can even slap me if u think that gonna make u feel much better.but again,i wont say anything,just the word SORRY to u deep down from me.

PEMALAS DH ACTIVE SEMULA.

2009-09-13T04:13:00.000+08:00

well...rasa SGT lama dh aku xtulis blog nie.aku rs mls sgt.aku tlintas nk tulis nie pon sbb my fren AIMAN ZAFIR asked about my blog n aku pon mcm teringin nk update selepas begitu lama "cuti bersalin".hahahah.....

thx to AIMAN ZAFIR. today my day went off by duduk depan laptop mcm pmpn xcukup mata.layan facebook lg.xabis2 gan farmville aku.
td aku berbuka gan daddy n brothers at PENANG RECIPE kota damansara..it was heaven,the food REALLY are penang recipe. he laksa was like..PERGH!! sbji sma mcm gurney drive punya.
aku mkn laksa,fried rice with kick boxing chicken,fish porridge n apple juice.YA! mmg saya kuat mkn n toras! so? i have big appetite da,so what?
i ate so much till rasa macam nk pecah perut aku.n mula lah aku dok rs memulas perut. TU LA TASHA SAPA SRH MKN XIGT DUNIA.ambik habuan!

we stopped by the curve,sj jln2 shopping.then br ja msk pintu the curve aku cr toilet dl..
bkn nk berak ye..nk MUNTAH.daymn it! alhamdullillah pas aku muntah,minda aku terbuka utk CLOTHES.hehehhe.but then,aku xtaw la sbb apa gan aku 2 3 ari nie.nuthing seem interesting to me.including clothes!! what happen tasha! so i end up with nuthing.AMAZING kan?this rarely happened.i mean REALLY RARELY.

smp umah..dok lepak jap.tapi kan pungkok ni gatai xleh dok diam.so aku heret la shaffiq to uptown with me.n again even things there doesnt attract me. i think im having some kind of syndrom.humans there YA ALLAH.ribu riban.1am br smp umah.so end up depan lappy again.

apa lg ha yg terjadi dlm idup aku ari nie?xdak apa kot.ya.AIMAN ZAFIR. dia nie sgt PANJANG orgnya.n SAYA SGT MINAT DIA............................................................................................................
punya KENING.hahahah.jgnlah mrh eman.e2 tandanya sayang k.he's a good fren.well...panjang ceritanya how we meet.maybe one day.i'll post a blog on how we meet. kan eman?=)

CARTOON MELAMPAU!!!!!!

2009-05-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

pernahkan anda menonton HAGEMARU??karton bdk pendek botak 2??yg slalu terkuaq lidah 2
ha meh cni dgq aku cita....episod apa ntah aku tgk...eh ada episod ka bnd nie....?lantak la
cita dia mcm nie...hagemaru nie nmpk perut mak dia besaq...then dia terus ckp mak dia ngandung...mak dia pn terkesima la wat seketika....sbb HAGEMARU cm beria-ria, siap ada sinar chaya,berkaca2 mata si pendek 2...so xsmp la aty nk bgtaw hal yg betoi....
hagemaru nie anak tunggal....dia ckp cm nie kt mak dia:

yea!!yea!! hagemaru nk dpt adek dh....eh dpt adek ka abg ar mama???xpe la dpt adek kew abg ke sama ja mama....jnji ada adik bradik...(eeee,bdo toi la hagemaru nie...mesti la dpt adek..mn mai abg lak!)

gelak la....ok aku taw ianya xselawak real show....dh la....klu xnk gelak tgk sdr la...!
kurang2 aku dh put an effort cb sedaya upaya nk bg angpa gelak...
apa pun jgn lupa try p tgk HAGEMARU....mmg karton plang melampau...mls nk cita byk2...huh!
klu nk tgk,cr dlm channel astro ceria....!

KEBENARAN TERBONGKAR.....!

2009-05-28T22:09:00.001+08:00

nightmare aku dh terjadi.................
masih igtkah anda dlm entri aku xrelaxen antara satu sama laen.....dimana aku telah berbohong kt mak aku ckp result belum kuaq.....??dan berjanji akan bgtaw results sejurus selepas besday aku??

n tahniah la tasha....td ptg koi 3kot..ayahanda ckp...tasha results dh kuaq kn??mcm mn result??OH SHIT! cm na lah dia leh taw lak nie....bkn dia sibuk gn meeting ja ka???knapa! knapa!knapa!aku pon dengan selamba dognya,ckp oh ya ke???belum check lg la....kank sat g i check k...(pandai sungguh kau berlakon ya tasha)....tima kaseh....

n td dia br col....mula2 dlm aty igt nk ckp kt daddy jgn bgtaw result first kt mummy..takot dia mengamuk...(jgn lah tny sbb apa dia nk mengamuk??common sense la ckit...sbb result xbgus la)..ishk...tp hasrat xkesampaian.....aku pon dengan muka blur wat2 xtaw....sambil memangdang lappy n ckp kt mumy2....ikutilah perbualan kami....(aku yg sedang berlakon menipu),kot2 lah blh masuk anak wayang apa ka...

tasha: mummy kwn sha ckp result dh kuaq....ishk,(smbil mengomel)..ckp june br dpt....berpura2
xtaw....(msh xpandang muka mak sdr...sbb takot....)

mummy: ha...cm na check??try la buka kot dh dpt....

tasha: berbisik dlm aty...bismillah...HA TGH BUKAK LA NIE...jap erkk(pdhal bnd 2 aku dh buka
dh....cm xtaww cm na nk elaborate result yg teruk 2)mummy! cuba teka i dpt apa...(sj wat cm suspender ckit)slama 2minit aku sebut....3 point
errrr........yg blakang tuh xterkuaq...

mummy: iphonennya berbunyi...(yes ini peluang terbak nk bgtaw)

tasha: 3.XXX...angpa xpyh la taw kn....finally....semua dh terbongkar...

mummy: tanpa ayat apa... (biasa ja muka mummy maya ni..muka yg slalu aku tgk slama 19taun
nie)

tasha: fuh!!dia xdak response....klu dia xdak response mksdnya dia ok la 2...klu dia meGERLING
ke arah aku 2 mmg siap la aku!

ok mummy dh setel...nie daddy lak nnie.....
perbualan km dlm bhasa cina so aku xleh la nk dialogkan perbualan km.....
singkatan....dia cm ckp ok la...so u nk apply utk apa???
dengan semangatnya aku ckp i will choose SP..mcm yg u wanted(ambik aty ayahanda) n IR mcm mummy wanted(ambik aty mak)...abis sapa yg nk ambik aty aku nie....haiz........kesian aku...

2 la tasha,bila swh blajaq,ponteng class...tdoq dlm class...ha ambik habuan kan dh dpt result cm 2...well..i learn from my lesson....new me coming soon in DEGREE......azam br nie walaupun new year blum smp....akhirnya 1beban dh hilang...moral of the story: BRANIKAN LAH DIRI ANDA...

LIVITA vs FRENCH LOAF

2009-05-28T18:44:00.001+08:00

td aku g ambik mummy blk keja...pas abis tgk gmbq kaisara dlm koi 6 cm 2 la....
pas 2 kami berhenti la kat petronas mesra..sbb mumy ckp nk beli STAR. dia ckp star paper xdak then lastly result dia beli livita n couple slice of marble cakes.

pas smp umh,terus tgk akasia MATAHARI. then dia bok kuaq la LIVITA nk minum..sblm dia minum 2 dia ckp SHA,pas ang tgk LIVITA ni ang teringat bnd apa???
tanpa membuang waktu,aku pon ckp la...smbil gelak...mesti la ingat...so mari kita IMBAS SEMULA scene2 yg pernah terjadi....beberapa tahun dahulu...mengenai kisah LIVITA nie...

pada suatu hari, ketika aku berumuq....umm...sekolah rendah..aku,ibunda,adek2ku..daniel n sapit..pergila berjalan2 shopping kt ONE STOP MALL(penang)..lalalallaalallala......then kejadian ini pny scene terjadi kt parking lot..yg bwh tanah,dlm bhasa omputih(basement la konon)...nie time kami nk blk umh dh nie..sblm balik 2 mumy beli la LIVITA sebotoi..then adek2 aku jln blakang aku..depa bising la kata...
rupa2nya...depa bguih pny dok berebut LIVITA sebotoi 2...biasa la bdk2 jantan klu dh berebut bnd...angpa taw la kan cm na keaaan 2 bising n plng penting MEMALUKAN...

so tanpa membuang waktu,mumy aku dia berhenti dr berjalan.dan berpaling ke blakang dengan renungan mata yg mcm umm....those MONSTER eye....dengan ada urat2 merah keliling mata..aku dlm aty pon berbisik...OMG mati lah adek2 aku nie...dia p kt adek2 aku...then aku igt nk PENAMPO ja bdk2 bising 2...then mumy aku dia ambik LIVITA 2,peciang!!!!!(wei aku xtaw la cm na nk imitate bunyi botoi kaca pecah) lantak la...mummy aku baling botoi LIVITA 2 bg pecah...

n her last word utk scene ini ialah...ha...nk berebut sgt kan...lani aku nk tgk sapa yg nk minum LIVITA ataas lantai 2...p la berebut,lawan jilat cepat!hahahahah...ya allah.smp lani aku igt...so setiap kali aku beli LIVITA.scene2 2 akan tergiang2 dlm kpala nie...

so apa kena mngena gn FRENCH LOAF lak..ha..nie pun ada kena mengena gn aku adekku n mummyku...location ini ialah PANGSAPURI TG TOKONG(penang). dimana ibunda pulang membawa seketoi french loaf yg panjang 2...seketoi erk??ntah la sebatang kot??xtaw la seketoi lg sedap bunyi..

time 2 mak aku dok sapu lantai, so time 2 km dok bdk2 lg...pantang tgk bnd yg bilangan 1 shaja..mesti nk berebut..so nmpk cm sedap la FRENCH LOAF 2,bdk2 mn suka kongsi..kan?kan?kan? then aku pon berebut la gn adek aku...si daniel 2..a.ka. boy..lepas beberapa scene tarik rmbut,terajang,tolak menolak,tampo2 gn adekku..tiba2 MY BIG MAMA datang dengan penyapu...igt nk tibai km gn penyapu...

rupa2nya...dia ambik french loaf dan baling terus ke arah tingkap yg terbuka luas(damn!pasaipa la time 2 lak tingkap terbuka...?!)..wala.....FRENCH LOAF 2 pon melabuhkan dirinya ke bwh(tmpt aku slalu main,tmn permainan 2)...time 2 umh aku tingkat 3...

tanpa berfikir panjang...cuba teka aku wat apa....????
jeng jeng jeng....aku pon berlari sepantas kilat turun tangga terus p kt tmn permainan bwh 2 cr FRENCH LOAF tersebut....
sronok terlompat2 girang apabila menemui FRENCH LOAF yg tersadai cantik atas tmn permainan 2(seb baek la FRENCH LOAF 2 msh berbungkus dengan plastik)..haahaa...
aku pon mkn sorng2 kt bwh 2 dengan bhagainya smbil nek dui....(dui nie mksdnya buaian la)..lalaalal....pdn muka adekku....

TASHA LAI once again have save the world..eh slap..da FRENCH LOAF!
so antara LIVITA N FRENCH LOAF.....yg manankah anda pilih??? nie tasha,ang igt nie quiz ka apa ha??nie blog la pandai....!nk swh owg plih2 lak....bengong...

ni lah LIVITA yg mengingatkan aku......kepada zaman2 aku tgh br nk up...hahaha....ey rupanya livita nie buatan JEPUN..aku br taw..dh xpyh nk kutuk2 aku ckp bengong,bnd cm nie pon xtaw..

TENTANG MYSPACE YG AKU NK BINCANGKAN

2009-05-28T16:26:00.000+08:00

ok first of all...untuk pengetahuan..aku dh ada ms ketika zaman sekolah lg...form 2 kot masa tuh...
so.....smp la skunk nie..wujud lg account 2...n few thing here yang aku nk bincangkan adalah...
dlm pic kan POST A COMMENT...e2 kan utk org post comment ttg diri kita...

i just dont get it when we ourself THE USER/THE OWNER of the account reply da comment in it....
aku rs benda 2 xptt dilakukan...ok sbbnya.....eh jap...aku bg example erk....contoh bdk pmpn nie..nm dia display dia sepet apa bnd ntah...comment ratusan...rupa2nya ratusan 2 smua bkn comment org laen...tp setiap kali org comment pic dia dia reply back dlm her own PICS!

apakah!so tamak.....if someone comment on ur pics...cara dengan btoi nk MENGREPLY adalah dengan post back pic comment of that person....ini tidaknya...dia reply blk dlm pics dia sdr...bengong!mungkin dia rs sronok bangga dgn diri sdr dia bila NMPK 129 COMMENT..hahahah...menipu diri sdr...

persons tat i look up ialah org yg comment dia dicomment oleh org laen dan bkn dicomment n reply by diri sdr...well...atleast bila kita reply blk comment kt person yg comment pic kita tuh,kita dpt la tunjuk ckit keikhlasan.bkn bersikap tamak nk bg banyak pics comment diri sdr.BODO!klu rs xmaw comment back their pics terus jgn reply or comment..kan senang idup cm 2??

e2 lah mslah aku gn MYSPACE.n lg 1 ialah ada gak manusia bodo yg bangang.sk bg num fon sdr..ada yg smp tulis tlg miscal num sekian2..kpala hotak KAU!mn ada 1 manusia dlm dunia nie yg nk miscol num stranger...n ada gak org yg sk wat2 kenai....
contoh comment mereka....ey tasya..(nama aku TASHA la bkn TASYA) nmpk sgt xkenai aku...dh lm xonline.g mn??lm xsembang?lm xnmpk...?......ey bila msa angpa slalu nmpk aku nie...bila msa yg kita sembang...ishkk...

klu nk kenai pon xpyh la wat smp cm 2...simple nice question will do...BUT NOT THOSE LAME questions....contoh...lm online,wat pa?mkn blum?ada kt na??
aku xkan entertain such lame questions.mintak maap yer...bkn sombong tp u just dont have personality....

actually byk lg la....yg nk aku protes...aku taw klu angpa bc mesti angpa t kata,ala...klu nk byk complain protes jgn guna la MYSPACE 2...dei suka aty aku la nk kt apa pon...blog aku..xsk...xpuas aty jgn bc la...STUPHOR! this is freedom of speech taw...!

xRELEXEN lansung antara 1 sama laen

2009-05-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

pagi nie aku bangun dlm keadaan separuh sedaq xsedaq....gerak adek aku bgn p skolah pkoi 10lbh..
akibat keadaan yg separuh mabuk 2,tahniah la aku hampir2 jatuh tangga...dlm aty mcm nk bg roboh ja tangga kayu 2..niat nk gergaji bg jd serbuk pon ada gak,tp pk2 blk..cm na nk nek t klu aku bg lingkup mak aku pny tangga nie...apa nie tasha,merapu apa nie...ishk.dh la...

ptg 2 ayahanda tercinta mai umh..dia mai sj dok relax jap sbb dia ada area nie...so aku tny la pasai lappy aku yg rosak utk kali ke bpa ratus ntah...dia ckp good for u shasha..ur lappy MOTHERBOARD rosak..i pon mcm WTF...MOTHERFCUK toi...biaq btoi cm na leh rosak smp ke mak2 nie...bknnya aku wat maen baling2 binatang lappy 2..sedih aku taw..br guna setahun lebh..
demi nk meredakan kemarahan dan kegelisahan aku...ayahanda telah membeli MCD ayam goreng spicy utk menambat(mcm kambing lak) diriku....

ok puan2...ari nie pny resepi utk mkn tgh ari adalah...
1. gulai mamak tanpa santan(kolestrol)
2.ikan goreng (garing2 pny)
3.sayur kacang panjang masak tiram
4.cili ptong kasi cincang ya...!
e2 lah yg saya masak utk ari nie k....
inginkan resepi????
pergi blajaq sediri la....hahahahah(gelak jahat)

ibunda tersayang td tiba2 tnya soalan yg aku plng allergic..sha...result bila kuaq??
warggghhh!!!tlg la ...aku msh menipu dgn bercakap....belum kuaq kot...hujung bulan atau awai bulan kot...huhuuu...pdhal results dh kuaq minggu pas wei....tolong!!!
aku xmaw bgtaw sbb nk tggu pas besday aku br nk bgtaw sbb takot adiah besday kena tarik..hahaha..i kno la i sound childish...(mcm la angpa xprh wat pragai cm nie!)
ok aku berjanji....dengan bersaksikan blogspot aku akan bgtaw parent aku setelah besday aku berakhir...boleh??

sekian sj la...walaupun ada bnd yg membelenggu minda ini..tp msh simpan dlm aty smp la mkn aty mkn diri..inilah tasha lai...sedih kn??klu la ada ubat yg boleh bg lupa ingatan aku la org pertama akan beli...wlaupun terpaksa membunuh sesama manusia...apa aku merapu nie..dh la..aku dh start nk mkn aty dh nie...ha...in count of 3.2.1.!wala...sesi memakan aty tlh bermula..dh la tasha,DIAM LA!ok aku diam...(sbb mkn sneaker ibunda bg,klu ikut mulut mmg xdiam)
nyte2...

hari pembukaan blogging dan beruk telan WASABI

2009-05-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

ok aku pon sibuk kan nk wat blog bila dh asyik membaca blog2 manusia2 atas dunia internet nie....bla bc aku rs sronok kadang bowink gak tengok depa nie 2lis...

so msa td aku tgh mandi(jam menunjukkan wak2 11.45p.m), ntah la aku nie mmg sk mandi mlm..aku taw bg musuh2 aku 2 mmg angpa rs bgs kn sbb br aku leh mati dgn semulajadinya tanpa diracuni oleh angpa kn...mati sebab paru2 berair...dh diam tasha...

sebelum turun nk membloggingkan diri,tiba2 rs nk wat facial..aku pon pakai la binatang mask putih 2,ntah la mummy aku yg beli kt GUARDIAN..dl aku slalu bising klu mumy aku heret aku msk GUARDIAN skunk nie aku plak yg mengheret dia...tp mask 2 btoi dia yg plih..

wei awat nyamuk byk nie..ishk dh gatai 1 bdn...stupid nyamuk,sumpah 18keturunan ang kena influenza...ok semasa sedang menCREATE blog aku tiba2 aku dgq adek aku kuaq dr bilik...straight ja dia p kt peti ais minum teh ais yg dia wat td.dia xsedaq aku da kt hall.then aku dgn berMASK PUTIH N BERAMBUT PANJANG MERGERBANG MCM NENEK KEBAYAN dgn senyap2nya seludup tepi kerusi.awat dia xkalih lg tengok blah hall nie...so aku tggu dgn penuh iman.

saat yg ditunggu dh tiba.(setelah 47saat menunggingkan diri di tepi kerusi,konon2 nk la jd cm pmpn dlm gmbq JU-ON).akhirnya dia kalih.dia tgk aku then dia mcm wat bdo,pas 2saat dia jerit smp terlompat2 mcm beruk kena WASABI..aku tnya dia awt lmbt response?

jawapan dia ialah.....aku nmpk bnd muka putih rmbut gerbang tp aku kn cm rabun ckit,so aku celik mata 4kkali(dlm keadaan cool mcm yg aku kt muka wat bdo dia tu)..e2 la dlm rumah tunjuk hero,macho sgt....ha..br tgk aku pki mask dh jerit kuar abis sora pmpn ang...br ada akai....beruk pn xlompat mcm ang!

nie la rupa aku ttg pki mask 2..ha...
yg blakang tuh adek yg aku kt 2 la...konon berlagak senyum peace..pdhal dh terkuaq jantung dh dia td....