EMOTIONAL+FEELING= TAK TENTERAM

i dont know what happened to me. i cant express or figure out what actually is wrong with me.i had this feeling that im quite thankful everything is over,but at the same time i still have this tiny feeling(tipu la klu aku kata tiny,more n more i mean) what i called love.maybe this is major problem.

only TUHAN yg lebih mengetahui.sesungguhnya aku xberniat nk sakitkan aty mn2 pihak or break their heart,i will never do that coz i've always put other ppl ahead me than myself. but im in this situation where i had to choose.whether its maw mati ka maw hidop kind of situation.since that on my right side of love is more faithfull n bak kata perpatah air dicincang xputus so i decided to choose the right side.but thats doesnt mean i dont love the left side.n again only TUHAN know how i feel.

since that aku sentiasa xlupa solat hajat so that everyone is happy,as long as they happy n eventhought it do hurt me, i still gonna SMILE n LAUGH like nothing happen.but then deep down,i'll just keep it to myself.aku anggap nie sbg dugaan TUHAN kpd hambanya.

all i can say is that IM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SORRY.
kita hanya merancang,TUHAN yg menentukan. again IM SO SO SO SORRY.
biaqlah dia anggap aku srng yg jahat,kejam,xberhati perot,mean,selfish,yes! i'll take all that.u can even slap me if u think that gonna make u feel much better.but again,i wont say anything,just the word SORRY to u deep down from me.