EMPTY vs HAPPY versi II

on my last few posts there's a post empty vs happy....the end of the post i wrote Emptiness is leading...but now what i can say is that YEY! HAPPINESS is daymn LEADING....fishy n turtle.happily ever after...hahahah....

im SOOOOOOOOO happy.....lalalalallalalalalalalalla........ =) mei mia amor...wo ai nie..bahahahhaha!

RAYA KETIGAKU>>>>>> ^^

today adalah raya ketiga.apa ayat aku nie.mcm budak skolah ja.ok2.next. teman eman p cr tcket blk kl at jeti but tutup la plak plusliner tu so we went off to Gurney Plaza sbb eman nk beli kasut for his sis.dh smp tu cr la kedai nose.try2 kasut yg nk beli then meet mummy at GSC then went down to food court makan.

after makan,ikut eman g parking lot sbb he say he got sumthing for me.heheheh.=) i dapat anak! anak ikan emas! so cute.n confession has been made. wee....im SOOO HAPPY.been smiling till abis tgk movie Tsunami with familia. hahaha.gila angau beb.

total tcket mummy bought was 16tcket for Tsunami movie.wah gila lawak movie tu awal2...xdak pon batang idong tsunami but after tat moment2 half and hour b4 finish..daymn stupid Tsunami buat aku nanges.dh la aku nie gila sensetip,sedih sikit nanges.seb baek eman xtgk skali klu x nmpk sudah muka buruk aku nanges.hahahah.=)

we went off from Gurney around 9sumthing.tergedek2 aku lari kat keta sbb nk tgk ikan emas aku.huh.seb baek idop lg.ksian dia.tu pon dh nk nyawa2 ikan.takot gila aku...so after cr kedai yg we all always go,dh tutup la plak so xjd,so smua went to tokwan house dok lepak2 sembang.then after tat round midnight br p mkn rmi2 kat kedai nearby beach.GILA XSEDAP!!! TOBAT aku xp dh kedai tu! dl kedai tu gila mmg sedap,dh tukaq owner.dh la service mcm taik.bengong mcm xphm bhsa melayu.sorry.aku mmg xpuaih aty...mintak cili potong bg sambai belacan.xka bangang?nasi dh nk abis br nk bg cili ptong.dh tu ckit lak.msk celah gigi ja.hhahahaha.

hari ni adalah tarikh keramat for me..22/09/2009....kan turtle?? agaknya TUHAN dgq doa aku slama nie.maybe this is it. =) tei amor turtle...^^

RAYA KEDUAKU>>>>>

i cant make it to taiping with eman.coz wat ha?sb xsempat nk inform mummy.
then get ready to go to mak long house.but really wanted to go taiping.maybe next time.=)

but b4 tat we all singgah at tesco for mcd.sbb dh lapaq mcd sgt.mummy la yg lapaq.not me.
arrive at gelugoq mak long house around 7sumthing.right b4 maghrib. tgk2 tv,mkn2 muruku (raya kena mkn muruku,xka merepek,mak long oh mak long),sembng2,gelak2(rutin faveret family ku),then only mkn.after tat,sambung blk smua rutin td smbil tgk movie congkak,gelak n tgk kehenseman shah rukh khan dlm movie om shanti om.,eh btoi ka aku eja.ntah la,layan ja la.
rounf 11sumthing br gerak blk.had so much fun taking pics,laughing with family n msg-ing him...=)
i upload dlm facebook ja la.mls nk upload 2 3 tmpt.huhu...

suppose to go to dzariff house beraya but xsempat sbb asyik ralek ja dok kat umah mak long.haizz.sorry dzariff.tomorow k.=) ok dh la.penat la nk tulis byk2.penat beraya.hahha.^^

RAYA PERTAMAKU>>>>>>

hari ini rasa indah sungguh sbb nie lah pagi raya,bgn siap2...main makeup2 jap.tolong mummy msak rendang.then layan family.

my fren org pertama yg mai umah is eman.mummy was really excited about he dtng beraya.haizz.
after mkn2 rndang.we r off to his house..mkn2 rendang lg.mkn cookies mak eman buat,main dgn bo0.tgk cita KISAH SITI...aisyeh man.dh xtaw nk wat pa.teka2 lagu,main2 guitar.apa lagi ha.igt nk wat trip pusing kampung but ujan so cancelled. n wujud lak terma baru IKAN EMAS BUNTAL.hahahha.daymn eman.seb baek dan delete.pdn muka ang eman! hahahaha.

went back home b4 maghrib.arip hantarkan.after a while,ttdoq lak smp 11sumthing.
unty layla came n bring laksa gurney.mkn2 then go n pump tayar at petronas then p umah farhana beraya sat.after tat p mcd sunrise mkn..saja lepak sembang.

coming back tyme,tayar keta pecah.YA ALLAH rs cm nk mati pon ada.sbb xtaw nk cp apa kat mummy bout tat tayar.pecah tahap xleh tampal okay! pecah yg tahap kena tukaq br.abis la duet raya aku! hahaha.alot of thingy happen.but thank god everything was settled.alhamdullillah.just tingai 1 lg beban iaitu how to tell mummy.eh lupa.THANK SO MUCH to ah bear n her god bros yg mai satu keta smp 4 org hero tlng tukaq tayar.tima kasih sgt2.klu xsilap i nama hero 2 ah yong.hahaha.

well..i had a really great time n enjoyed.thx Juboq.hahaha.=) i hope u had fun to0.rindu bo0..oh ya b4 i lupa eman kata nk bg duet raya sebanyak 1.35sen. thank ya.tp blom dpt.hahha.nk tin love tu skali ya.hahaha.aku xleh lupa bdk2 yg mai umah nk beraya tu...=0

EMPTY vs HAPPY??

haizz...apa semua aku buat mcm xkena ja...ya la nmpk ja mcm aku nie happening happy huha sana sni..
asyik senyum gelak ja but deep down?alahai....Tuhan aja yg taw...nk wat cm na.
no one seem to understand.
all the sad songs mcm membakaq lg keEMPTINESS nie.benchik la.
apa yg aku boleh buat?i dun even know dh...

once i was falling in love,
now i was just falling apart.

OMG! there's no check n balance in my emotion n feeling.
this can cause me HEART CANCER taw x!
im quite clueless nk tulis anything dlm nie.
tomorow im going back to ampang after my morning class.ada la rs happy tu. but...awtcm xsronok ha?

then on thursday only im going back to PENANG! yeah baby!
xsabaqnya rasa.
btw...empty vs happy? i think EMPTY is leading now....
i need HAPPY BOOSTER now a.s.a.p! anyone pls????

UNTITLED

yesterday i manage to sleep back after berfacebooking.thank God.
jap aku nk kira jumlah jam aku tdoq smlm....
2ptg-6.30ptg tambah dengan (4jamstengah)
8.30mlm-12.30mlm tambah lagi dengan (4jam)
3pagi-11.30pagi....equal to? (8jamstengah)
sat dok cari kakikukalator....
okay total aku tdoq semalam 19jam...ala..belom pecah lagi rekod terhebat aku iaitu tdoq selama 2hari xbgn...i know i may sound like a dude tdow smlm 2hari but e2 lah dipanggil LETIH..ya ka letih TASHA?hahahha..whatever la.maybe.

yesterday my roomate,sakit teruk..asyik batuk ja.aku pon dh nek seriyau.aku nie anti body lemah ckit.kank dia dok batuk lebih2 kank xraya lak aku...well,at the same time aku care for her..cewah tasha! hahahha..ey aku nie a caring type of fren okay.

contoh erk cara aku care..dgq nie.aku bg selimut aku kat dia sbb dia sejuk.well lg satu sebab aku wat cm tu sbb dia pelahankan kipas.geez.aku nie mmg xtahan panas maw yg sejuk2 aja ya selalu.so that aku leh bukak kipas num 3.aku bglah selimut aku kat dia.then msa bgn subuh td aku srh tnya dia sejuk lg ka nad? dia ckp bhagian kaki sejuk so aku srh la dia pki sock n seluaq.isnt im caring? xka?

DUNIA INI INDAH KAN APABILA HARI AKU BERMULA DENGAN CAHAYA TENGAHARI...kan kan kan? wei aku lupa sahur la..ala benchik la cm nie.kan dh lapaq..warghh!

IM THE QUENN....lalallalala

apa nie asyik tdoq ja nie...wargghh!!
time org tdoq aku bgn,,time aku bgn org tdoq...tension..
eh,skt perot la plak...eee.....!
apa aku dok melalut kt dlm nie nie! DH LA TASHA GO TO SLEEP!
i cant...pls make me....
should i end here? ya maybe.
there's high possibility im coming back n write again like usual..
we will see.
daily activities: tdoq xigt dunia.
terima kasih tdoq sbb jadikan dunia aku menjadi lembab dan mandom. =)

yes mmg saya ala2 GEDIX AND MENGADA2..so WHAT?

yes mmg saya mengada-gada n mungkin kalau angpa nk ckp aku gedix,aku xkisah.mmg aku mcm nie.

motif blog nie ditulis apabila aku tgh mandi td..tiba2 aku tringatkan semua jamban2 n pangcok yg kotoq yg pernah aku jumpai..eeeewww.....
untuk pengetahun umum,anda sukakah toilet kotoq?ya aku xsk n AKU GELI.dosakah aku utk ada perasaan cm tu BODO???

aku sggup tahan taik aku n ayaq kencing semata2 toilet tu kotoq.so what? ngada-ngada? yes..mmg.!well HUMAN, toilet e2 tepat utk kita bersihkan diri or buang kekotoran mcm taik n kencing.klu tempat tu xbersih,bukankah PENGOTOQ namanya.cm na bersihkan diri klu tmpt yg spttnya or boleh bersih tu xbersih.SAKAI la org yg XPHM nie.

ha abis bab toilet nie,ada lg satu tmpt aku plng sensetip.KITCHEN. mak aih...klu dapoq pon xreti nk bg bersih jg elok2.mmg nk kena duku la. again.kitchen tmpt sediakan FOOD babeh!
klu dh kotoq kitchen tu,so AUTOMATICALLY makanan angpa KOTOQ la bangang! dh xyah nk nafikan ckp"xdak la aku sedia mkanan td pki sarung tangan plastic ka kaca ka penyepit ka",i dun care,it still KOTOQ.

so moral of the story,cucilah bersih2 tonyoh elok2 semua kekotoran DEGIL di toilet n kitchen anda.=) gunalah MR.MUSCLE...hahahha.pls make sure u dont have all that daki2 black thingy in ur kitchen or toilet.GEEZ! i really annoyed by that.KOTOQ la BODO.

ini hanya rekaan semata2,tidak ada kena mgena dgn rumah sesiapa mahupun restoran sesiapa ataupun yg sudah meninggal dunia.WTH...? apa2 ja lah.

p/s: inilah cara saya menGEDIKkan diri. =)

AIMAN ZAFIR

eman.xpeduli la ang suka xsk warna pink nie.janji aku sk kan.....
according to my second last post(wah according2 mcm buat math lak) aku kata nk wat post pasai eman n how we meet kan??

so aku tgh xwat keja apa nie.pdhal assignment bertimbun mcm paper star kt umh aku.so aku wat la post nie sbb aku celik mata subuh td dh ada msg dr dia.
eman i think we should start from ur IC la kan?

okay then.back from school,aku dl skolah convent light street,n si eman nie lak st.xavier(depan skolah aku n adek aku pon skolah yg sma) BUT aku xprh kenai dia.masa aku blk skolah,ambik la adek aku skali,then adek aku kata kat mak aku,mummy boy jumpa wallet or just an IC,ntah la.so kami dengan hati mulia n murni nie,tgk la nama kat IC tu sbb nk konon either post ka send ourself ka.nama tertera atas IC tu Aiman mestilah bin Zafir kan.nama penuh xigt lak.=)

ala tgk punya tgk,ceh dekat ja umh mamat nie dgn aku.lorong kedua sblm rumah aku.ha alang2 nk blk tu kami stop by la.eh b4 that ada lah terjadi adengan berhubung(telefon) but i cant remember.need to ask boy.ok aku dh lupa gak la eman whether kat IC ang tulis alamat or adengan col2 2 yg ang bgtaw alamat.either one la k.

bila smp depan umh si eman nie.aku xbg perhtian sgt pn sbb aku ngantok time tu,rsnya aku dok landing kt sofa blakng keta mummy.=)after few days or weeks.adek aku si boy nie pon berkwan la gan si eman nie.so si eman nie,adk dia n srng mamat nama ADAM iaitu cuzin dia mai umah.aku time tu br bgn tdoq.terkejut aku tgk ada 3makhluk LELAKI yg BESAQ.terutama AIMAN.=)

that time aku belom jgk lg kenali any of them.maklum lah kan.malu.hehehe.dh lah mak aih besaq panjang2 depa nie.time ke brapa ntah depa mai umh aku br aku ada ckp2 ckit gan depa.but still aku xbapa bg perhatian kt eman.sbb apa?sbb kononnya adek aku ckp one of them minat aku but not eman.then aku pon msg2 la gan yg srng tu.

after all this while,last year or this year kot,aku dpt that THE TRUTH.rupa2nya.....nk bgtaw ke eman?xyah la.we just keep it to ourself.n for sure.adek aku yg bgtaw bnd nie kat aku.since that,aku rapat gan eman till today.aku first time tgk eman tu.aku tertarik sbb keunikan KENINGNYA.n of coz KETINGGIANNYA. amazing! but then he got nice smile to0.bukan mcm aku pki braces.hahahah. oh ya! dl aku slalu p bakery mak dia.sbb mak aku baek gan amk dia.=) n dia jrng ada gak.sbb time tu dia DELIVERY BOY utk mak dia.nice sandwich u got there.!sedap!

what more ha...humm...dia prh mai umh aku kt ampang.sbb umh nenek dia kat kl.we jarang lepak together just more to SMSing each other. one thing for sure.my mummy really like AIMAN.y ha mummy?they even like to chat to each other.haizz...eman igt x last sembang gan mummy dia kata apa kat ang? eman unty tggu eman msk meminang.WTH...hahahhaha.

what more yg aku da tertingai.pls leave ur comment ya AIMAN ZAFIR....=)

EMOTIONAL+FEELING= TAK TENTERAM

i dont know what happened to me. i cant express or figure out what actually is wrong with me.i had this feeling that im quite thankful everything is over,but at the same time i still have this tiny feeling(tipu la klu aku kata tiny,more n more i mean) what i called love.maybe this is major problem.

only TUHAN yg lebih mengetahui.sesungguhnya aku xberniat nk sakitkan aty mn2 pihak or break their heart,i will never do that coz i've always put other ppl ahead me than myself. but im in this situation where i had to choose.whether its maw mati ka maw hidop kind of situation.since that on my right side of love is more faithfull n bak kata perpatah air dicincang xputus so i decided to choose the right side.but thats doesnt mean i dont love the left side.n again only TUHAN know how i feel.

since that aku sentiasa xlupa solat hajat so that everyone is happy,as long as they happy n eventhought it do hurt me, i still gonna SMILE n LAUGH like nothing happen.but then deep down,i'll just keep it to myself.aku anggap nie sbg dugaan TUHAN kpd hambanya.

all i can say is that IM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SORRY.
kita hanya merancang,TUHAN yg menentukan. again IM SO SO SO SORRY.
biaqlah dia anggap aku srng yg jahat,kejam,xberhati perot,mean,selfish,yes! i'll take all that.u can even slap me if u think that gonna make u feel much better.but again,i wont say anything,just the word SORRY to u deep down from me.

PEMALAS DH ACTIVE SEMULA.

well...rasa SGT lama dh aku xtulis blog nie.aku rs mls sgt.aku tlintas nk tulis nie pon sbb my fren AIMAN ZAFIR asked about my blog n aku pon mcm teringin nk update selepas begitu lama "cuti bersalin".hahahah.....

thx to AIMAN ZAFIR. today my day went off by duduk depan laptop mcm pmpn xcukup mata.layan facebook lg.xabis2 gan farmville aku.
td aku berbuka gan daddy n brothers at PENANG RECIPE kota damansara..it was heaven,the food REALLY are penang recipe. he laksa was like..PERGH!! sbji sma mcm gurney drive punya.
aku mkn laksa,fried rice with kick boxing chicken,fish porridge n apple juice.YA! mmg saya kuat mkn n toras! so? i have big appetite da,so what?
i ate so much till rasa macam nk pecah perut aku.n mula lah aku dok rs memulas perut. TU LA TASHA SAPA SRH MKN XIGT DUNIA.ambik habuan!

we stopped by the curve,sj jln2 shopping.then br ja msk pintu the curve aku cr toilet dl..
bkn nk berak ye..nk MUNTAH.daymn it! alhamdullillah pas aku muntah,minda aku terbuka utk CLOTHES.hehehhe.but then,aku xtaw la sbb apa gan aku 2 3 ari nie.nuthing seem interesting to me.including clothes!! what happen tasha! so i end up with nuthing.AMAZING kan?this rarely happened.i mean REALLY RARELY.

smp umah..dok lepak jap.tapi kan pungkok ni gatai xleh dok diam.so aku heret la shaffiq to uptown with me.n again even things there doesnt attract me. i think im having some kind of syndrom.humans there YA ALLAH.ribu riban.1am br smp umah.so end up depan lappy again.

apa lg ha yg terjadi dlm idup aku ari nie?xdak apa kot.ya.AIMAN ZAFIR. dia nie sgt PANJANG orgnya.n SAYA SGT MINAT DIA............................................................................................................
punya KENING.hahahah.jgnlah mrh eman.e2 tandanya sayang k.he's a good fren.well...panjang ceritanya how we meet.maybe one day.i'll post a blog on how we meet. kan eman?=)